September......1

It's that time again faithful few...

I deliberated for most of the day as to what I was going to share with you guys this weekend. I did know that I wanted to share the beginning stages of a painting that I am working on for this contest. So far I have started blocking in the colors and the composition of the piece. Hopefully next week I'll have some updated images for you guys. It's my first time working in oils in a while so I am pretty excited about working on it. I still feel like I might change a lot on it but I'm still pretty stoked about the direction it is going in.
What else do I have for you guys...lets see, we'll this is the first post of September and it seems really weird that its almost the end of the year. It feels like it was just March. If things are the way they would have us to believe we have about 80 days left to live. So lets make the most of it. ;) I think that's all I have for this week because I feel like I might start spurting out more gibberish. See you guys next week.


-Namaste

What The Duck...

I think on a somewhat "subconscious/conscious" level I am afraid to make the work I want to make. I told my girl this the other day. When I think back to the sort of self-discovery I had back in my junior year of college to where I am today, I often wonder why my work took such a drastic turn. I mean I went from making work that could have become quite provocative to making work that in my own honest opinion, sometimes viewed as "being safe". What happened along the way...

I guess it's associating with and being around people who, now don't get me wrong have been cool people...it's just some of them either wouldn't get it or find it offensive. That's not to say that I diverted from the work because I cared about what people said but I believe it had more to do with my self-defined ideal of those closest around me.

Its like in my mind I have this internal struggle between myself and being the artist I could/should be. Whenever I endeavor to create work like I used to do its like I self-destroy that motivation and then do something that I know people will fill its pretty or pleasing to the eye. I really need to defeat that demon in my head and get back to create work for me. Need to break down that wall in my mind that has been put up. I know what you are going to say. "Why don't you just do it and not care about what people may or may not think about it?" I mean it seems easy enough right? But when your personality is like a guardian to your subconscious mind and forces you to think of others before yourself; it gets tricky. And don't even get me started on how it stagnates "Art for Arts' sake".

At the end of the day, its about taking that leap and not looking back. Its getting yourself into that mindset that you have something you want to say and who gives a hell whether or not people like it or whether they feel like your "treadging" up the past...or if they feel like you are talking about something that's never effected you. In some ways, you have to be sort of selfish when creating. In any event, it's easier said then done my friends...easier said than done...

 

 

-Namaste

 

This Space Reserved...

Hey faithful few...I've been sick the past few days and I haven't had time to finish up my blog post for this weekend. I will be sure to get it out to you guys next week. Until then...


-Namaste

And so...

So I didn't spend a few days in DC like I had planned. I did have a little "me time" though. Also I did go and spend yesterday in DC. I walked around a little and hit up the movie theater for a double feature. I didn't take my camera with me because it was quite rainy here yesterday. Didn't want to be out take pics with my camera in the rain. I'm not setup for that yet. Maybe in the future. I did however, snap a few interesting pics with my iPhone that I might post here next week. I am going to have a few images of this painting that I mentioned last week for you guys as well. 

That's all I have for you guys this week. Until next week...

 

 

 

 

-Namaste

New work coming soon...

I have a piece that I am about to start for work that I am slightly excited about doing. The excitement comes from knowing that it will be an oil painting. It been a long time since I've worked in oils, so I am looking forward to it.

What am I going to do you might ask? Well I thought I would keep that slightly secretive. I know what I want to do but I am still deliberating on whether that's what I want to do. I have a predetermined pallet that I personally chose for doing what I initially thought of doing but you know sometimes in art the work decides it wants to be something else...we shall see what I come up with.

This week coming up I want take a trip south to DC to do a little photography work, which may or may not end up in this piece that I am about to start. Again, we shall see...don't you just love the uncertainty that art can create...As always, when I know, you guys will know.

-Namaste

My Future is or My Future has already begun...

Webster's dictionary defines FUTURE as:
1 a : time that is to come b : what is going to happen.

There used to be a time where I questioned my future. Where I wondered what the future held for me. I mean as kids, it was so easy to predict the future. I mean I'm sure we've all had the dream or should I say goal of being rich. I mean who doesn't want loads and loads of money. I mean $10,000 a year would make us quite wealthy, right? Lol. Ah to be young and innocent again.

Now I not getting all down on the future. I am actually looking forward to it. A few years ago if you asked me about my future, I would say I have goals...I have dreams...I hope I see them fulfilled. Nowadays though I feel like...NO, I know that my future is "time that is to come." Because of things that have happened to me personally recently and in the past, I have made it my mission to not dream of the future but live in the future now. (No, I'm not talking time travel or going slightly crazy) I am taking everything that happens to me as the "future" progresses as "what is going to happen..." Now that doesn't mean I am going to become an extreme free spirit...it just means that I am going to take things as they come and also I'm going to try not to let chances fall by the wayside.

There are things in my life that I know for sure are my future, my everything. I hope to strengthen those connections as I make my way through my future. In a way I feel like I have reclaimed some of that childlike innocence when it comes to my outlook on the future. And as always, I will share that future with you...my faithful few.

-Namaste

Unconditional love or Love Eternal...

I just wanted to post the lyrics to this song by Musiq Soulchild for you guys this weekend. It's been on my mind and in my ear almost the entire week. The lyrics in this song is so special to me. I believe in and love the message in this song. I suggest that if you like the words to the song, you YouTube it or google it and listen to it. Very powerful! Without further ado:

 

Musiq Soulchild

Don't Change lyrics

 

Lately you've been questioning if I still see you the same way

Cause through these trying years we gonna both physically change

Now don't you know you'll always be the most beautiful woman I know

So let me reassure you darling that my feelings are truly unconditional, see




(Chorus)

I'll love you when your hair turns grey girl

I still want you if you gained a little weight, yeah

The way I feel for you will always be the same

Just as long as your love don't change (no)

I was meant for you and you were meant for me, yeah

And I make sure that I'll be everything you need, Yeah

Girl the way we are is how it's gonna be

Just as long as your love don't change




Cause I'm not impressed more or less by them girls on the TV or magazines

Cause honestly I believe that your beauty is way more then skin deep

It's everything about you makes me feel I have the greatest gift in the world

And even when you get on my last nerve

I couldn't see myself being with another girl




(Chorus)

I'll love you when my hair turns grey girl

I still want you if you gained a little weight, yeah

The way I feel for you will always be the same (just as long)

Just as long as your love don't change (just as long as your love yeah)

I was meant for you and you were meant for me, yeah (meant for me)

And I make sure that I'll be everything you need, yeah

Girl the way we are is how it's gonna be (just as long yeah)

Just as long as your love don't change (yeah)




So don't waste your time worrying about

Small things that ain't relevant to me

Cause to my understanding your all I want and need

See what I'm gonna say is I'm here to stay

And as long as your love doesn't change for me

Baby darling I swear that I, I swear I ain't going nowhere (no)




(Chorus)

I'll love you when your hair turns grey girl

And I still want you if you gained a little weight, yeah

The way I feel for you will always be the same (just as long)

Just as long as your love don't change (just as long as your love stays the

Same yeah)

I was meant for you and you were meant for me, yeah (meant for me)

And I make sure that I'll be everything you need, yeah

Girl the way we are is how it's gonna be

Just as long as your love don't change




(Choir and Musiq)

You are my baby (you're my baby yeah yeah)

Don't you change baby (don't you change baby no)

I love you I do know (baby you gotta understand that I love you baby yeah yeah)

(Don't you know, you gotta know you got to know) (Yeah oh oh yeah)







-Namaste